“This will fix me.”

I understand what you mean…That sigh of relief when you get the medication you need when you are sick. That rush of excitement when you see the person who interests you. That extra-credit assignment that brings your grade up to a B. Right?

“This will fix me…this will fix me…”

It will help you in certain areas, yes. But what about the overall you?

“I’ll find other things to fix those areas…I will be better then.”

What if those other things don’t work?

“They will…they will…”

What if you are unfixable?

“You’re dumb. Of course I can be fixed. Jerk.”

No, I didn’t mean you’re a hopeless cause. Just…what if you’re not supposed to be fixed?

“What AM I supposed to be, then?”

Well…

“Because whatever it is, I’m sure not it right now.”

Listen, what if you’re not supposed to be fixed.

“Then why should I even try anymore…gee thanks.”

What if…What if you’re supposed to be redeemed?

“That’s the same thing as fixed.”

Well, yes and no. You will be WELL, but you won’t be perfect. Being redeemed doesn’t erase who you are, but it gives you hope.

“I wouldn’t need hope if I was fixed.”

But redemption gives you hope AND joy…and life. What would it be like to live, still imperfect, but completely and utterly covered? Not just…’fixed.’

“You make it sound like an insurance plan.”

Haha, that’s true. But really…what if it’s not about being ‘fixed’ at all? What if it’s about something richer, deeper…being redeemed?

“That sounds hard. I can control whether I’m fixed or not.”

But what if you can’t fix everything? What if you can’t fix the pain, the loneliness, the hurt? What if you simply CAN’T do it? What if everything you try eventually fails. Friendships fail…Families fall apart…self-will dries up…drugs suck your life away…what if we can’t fix it. What if we can’t…

What if…what if we are unfixable?

…What if redemption is our only hope?